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  My introduction
Posted by: budo - 04-10-2018, 06:26 PM - Forum: Introductions - Replies (4)

Hello,

I go by the username Budo. I started meditating in 2009-2010 when I discovered Buddhism. Since then it has been a process of weeding out what works and what doesn't work. I found that I never really liked Zen or Mahayana because it was too ambiguous and fluffy for me. The book Mindfulness in Plain English by Henepola Gunaratana is what made me experience Mind and Body insights for the first time in 2010. Over the years I delved into many different Buddhist teachings, but always returned to Theravada.

I followed the teachings of Henepola Gunaratana, Ayya Khemma, Thanissaro Bhikkhu, and Buddhadasa Bhikkhu. Last year I was able to enter First Jhana consistently, to the point that my visual field was white, with a strong white orb nimitta, very strong piti/sukha, and loss of hearing while in that state. I even had nights where I woke up in the middle of the night and saw electric spiderwebs with eyes in them, and see-through transparent beings, perhaps from touching 4th Jhana a few times. My dreams became more vivid and more lucid, I started having 100% dream recall.

While the Jhanas were fun to play with, I eventually got dispassion towards them. I went on a 15 day Ajahn Tong/Mahasi based vipassana retreat last summer which was a rollercoaster of emotions, extremely vivid dreams almost as if they were past live memories, a lot of painful sensations coming to surface, etc.  My desires also disappeared for that time, I had no desire to eat until half the day was already over, foods I liked I no longer wanted to eat.

After that retreat I don't know if I attained stream entry or a new path, but I took a break from Buddhism and meditation, went traveling, got into video games and other distractions, but now my interest in video games is slowly disappearing and my interest in meditation and Buddhism is returning.
 
I started meditating again, I don't know if I can get back to first jhana, or if I even have a desire to, I just want to attain a path. I don't feel like I have any suffering in me, only boredom or withdrawal from addictions like video games. I still have some questions regarding the Mahasi dry insight practice, maybe Bhikkhu Pesala can answer them in another thread I'll post.

Aside from that, my goal is to attain nibbana, or at least a path.


Thanks for reading and any thoughts or feedback is appreciated.


Budo

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  Chaiya Meditation Monastery
Posted by: Bag of Bones - 04-02-2018, 01:02 PM - Forum: Insight Meditation - Replies (1)

Greetings Bhante,

I've been reading 'In this Very Life' and trying to practice Mahasi method meditation but feel a retreat of intensive practice is probably necessary to get going with it, so I've been looking for places in the States and came across the Chaiya Meditation Monastery in Las Vegas. Do you know anything about it, or the Venerable Chaiya who is the abbot? I emailed them and got reply to call the abbot, and will once I know when is a good time.

http://www.chaiyacmm.org/ajahn%20chaiya.html

Thank you

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  Typo: Exposition of Mangala Sutta
Posted by: Bag of Bones - 03-27-2018, 11:39 PM - Forum: Books by Bhikkhu Pesala - Replies (2)

Greetings Bhante,
Blessing 34, third sentence has a typo: "Scream-winner".

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  Vasala Sutta — The Outcaste
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 03-12-2018, 11:07 PM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

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The Buddha teaches a fire-worship brahmin about the moral defects that make someone an outcaste.

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  Parābhava Sutta — The Causes of Downfall
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 03-07-2018, 09:43 PM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

Added the Parābhava Sutta — The Causes of Downfall

The antithesis to the Maṅgala Sutta on Blessings, also taught to a deity at Sāvatthi.

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  Kasibhāradvāja Sutta — A Discourse to the Farmer Bhāradvāja
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 03-04-2018, 09:15 PM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

Added the Kasibhāradvāja Sutta — A Discourse to the Farmer Bhāradvāja

The Buddha teaches a farmer how he ploughs and farms the fruit of the deathless.

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  Mettānisaṃsā Sutta — The Benefits of Loving-kindness
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 02-28-2018, 05:01 PM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

Added the Mettānisaṃsā Sutta — The Benefits of Loving-kindness

The eleven benefits of constantly practising loving-kindness.a

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  Upāli Sutta — A Discourse to Upāli
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 02-27-2018, 07:38 AM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

Added the Upāli Sutta — A Discourse to Upāli

The Buddha teaches Upāli ten reasons for laying down of the training rules.

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  Pabbajita Abhiṇha Sutta — Facts for Constant Recollection by One Gone-forth
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 02-27-2018, 07:36 AM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

Added the Pabbajita Abhiṇha Sutta — Facts for Constant Recollection by One Gone-forth

Ten facts that one gone-forth should recollect constantly.

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  Sīhanāda Sutta — Discourse on the Lion’s Roar
Posted by: Bhikkhu Pesala - 02-25-2018, 07:53 PM - Forum: Selected Discourses - No Replies

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The Buddha gives ten reasons why he makes the lion’s roar in assemblies.

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